Wednesday, September 9, 2015

sketch of vignettes -02

First
This is about the feeling of hearing the uncomfortable sound.
For example, the sound of the knife and the fork hits on the glass, rubbing ballon, nails scratching on blackboard.
When I hear the uncomfortable sound I feel painful and hoping the sound to stop. I try to imaging the sound is mute in my mind. After tolerating the sound, the uncomfortable feeling remains for a while. My body shivers every time I think of the sound.






Second
The feeling of struggling between I know I should do but I don't want to do it immediately.
For example, to get out of bed and stay in bed.
It is ten minutes left that if I don't get up I will be late to work. But I am too tired to get up. Moreover, it is cold outside and the bed is so comfortable. Thus, I wake up to see the time, and then fall asleep. And than quickly awake to see the time again, then fall asleep. The fear of being late makes me wake up to see the time. And the desire of sleeping for the rest few minutes let me stay in bed.










Third
The feeling of anxious.
When waiting for something to be ready, the more I expect, the more anxiety I feel.
For example, waiting for food in the oven, or waiting for the result of competition.
I made a cake for hours, and it was in the oven. The receipt says the cake need to bake for 40 minutes. I know I have to be patient to wait the cake to be ready. But I hope it can be ready soon. Besides, I cannot feel relax because if I don't keep an eye on it, maybe the cake will bake too over.  So I have to stay beside the oven and stop myself to keep opening the oven to see if the cake is ready or not.



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